Sometimes it feels like I am completely alone in this world, but I’m about to feel even more alone as I will be on my way to London in just four days. Somehow I’m starting to feel okay with everything. Maybe I’ve just had enough time now to prepare myself mentally for this amazing journey I am about to embark on or… maybe not. I guess the real test will be when I’m standing in line at the airport, waving good-bye to my family and friends. The other possibility is that the realization hasn’t even hit me yet, but I feel oddly calm about leaving right now. Maybe I’ve gone through a process, you know, like the grieving process? The first stage is Denial followed by Anger, Depression, and lastly - Hope. Only in my case the stages were marked (1) Over-Excitement, (2) Untamed Uncertainty, (3) Depression, Stress, & Anxiety, and (4) Acceptance. If I have gone through some sort of process, I’ve definitely reached the last stage. Only now, I’ll go through another process – the process of culture shock!
Monday, December 31, 2012
Going Through Stages
Sometimes it feels like I am completely alone in this world, but I’m about to feel even more alone as I will be on my way to London in just four days. Somehow I’m starting to feel okay with everything. Maybe I’ve just had enough time now to prepare myself mentally for this amazing journey I am about to embark on or… maybe not. I guess the real test will be when I’m standing in line at the airport, waving good-bye to my family and friends. The other possibility is that the realization hasn’t even hit me yet, but I feel oddly calm about leaving right now. Maybe I’ve gone through a process, you know, like the grieving process? The first stage is Denial followed by Anger, Depression, and lastly - Hope. Only in my case the stages were marked (1) Over-Excitement, (2) Untamed Uncertainty, (3) Depression, Stress, & Anxiety, and (4) Acceptance. If I have gone through some sort of process, I’ve definitely reached the last stage. Only now, I’ll go through another process – the process of culture shock!
Labels:
Culture Shock,
Excitement,
Family,
Friends
Location:
Menomonie, WI
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Can't Stop Partying
These days I don't get to see my family as much as I used to, so when I arrived at my parent's house on Saturday night, my brother, Ben, and I stayed up the whole night talking. We reminisced about our High School days for a long time, recalling both awesome and terrible memories from our youth. Then we picked up the old guitars and strummed a few tunes. All of the old songs brought back even more memories.
My brother and I used to jump in my car and drive to any random social gathering we could find, but the best part of it all was getting to spend some one on one time with him. Even though we lived together in the same house, we both had our own friends and our own extra curriculars to attend to. We didn't have a lot in common, but we both loved rock 'n roll and we both loved to party. The only time we really spent together were those car rides - singing "Can't Stop Partying" by Weezer at the top of our lungs - and confiding in the trust that we both had for each other. During those times, we told each other everything. We talked about our problems, complained about school, and shared our dreams. We swore we were going to make something out of ourselves.
My brother is graduating this spring, and next fall he'll be off to college. Although I'm moving to London for five months, I know the distance will never separate us. I can't believe how fast the time is going by. One second we're living on top of the world, and the next second reality comes crashing down on us and we start to realize that we have to grow up sometime or another. I'm just thankful that I have people to hold onto as I try to navigate this fantastic, ever-changing world. The bond that we share is truly a special thing, and I really believe that is one thing that will never change.
My brother and I used to jump in my car and drive to any random social gathering we could find, but the best part of it all was getting to spend some one on one time with him. Even though we lived together in the same house, we both had our own friends and our own extra curriculars to attend to. We didn't have a lot in common, but we both loved rock 'n roll and we both loved to party. The only time we really spent together were those car rides - singing "Can't Stop Partying" by Weezer at the top of our lungs - and confiding in the trust that we both had for each other. During those times, we told each other everything. We talked about our problems, complained about school, and shared our dreams. We swore we were going to make something out of ourselves.
My brother is graduating this spring, and next fall he'll be off to college. Although I'm moving to London for five months, I know the distance will never separate us. I can't believe how fast the time is going by. One second we're living on top of the world, and the next second reality comes crashing down on us and we start to realize that we have to grow up sometime or another. I'm just thankful that I have people to hold onto as I try to navigate this fantastic, ever-changing world. The bond that we share is truly a special thing, and I really believe that is one thing that will never change.
Labels:
Christmas,
Conversations,
Excitement,
Family,
Fear,
Friends,
High School,
Live Music,
Memories,
Time
Location:
Menomonie, WI
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Christmas Creation
It’s
winter in Wisconsin! I hate the cold weather, but the snow is always beautiful.
This year we’re having a Christmas Eve party at my Mom’s house. We moved into that
house when I was about five years old – right before I started Pre-School, and
this is the first time we’ve ever thrown a Christmas Eve party. So this weekend
I’m going to go over and help my Mom decorate the tree and the house and bake
all kinds of goodies. I think it’s going to be really fun.
Meanwhile, back in Menomonie – my college town – I decided to decorate my own “Christmas Tree”. My boyfriend and I decided not to get a tree this year, so instead I decorated a pile of books! Check it out:
Meanwhile, back in Menomonie – my college town – I decided to decorate my own “Christmas Tree”. My boyfriend and I decided not to get a tree this year, so instead I decorated a pile of books! Check it out:
Location:
Menomonie, WI
Monday, December 17, 2012
Finals Week
For a
few days I had myself convinced that I didn’t really want to study abroad
anymore. I think it was a combination of being stressed out because of finals
and the prospect of seeing my family and realizing just how much I’m going to
miss them when I’m gone. I went to visit my Mom to talk it over with her, and I
started crying about everything that I wasn’t happy with in my life. The best
piece of advice she gave me was that if I don’t do it, I’ll regret it. She told
me that she wished she had taken more opportunities in her life. My brother was
right there along with my mom. He told me to do it because I might not get
another chance. He told me not to worry about possibly missing his graduation
ceremony. He even joked about coming to visit me in London instead of attending
his own ceremony. I told him that he better book his ticket right away!
So, even after visiting with my family for a day, I still wasn’t completely decided on whether or not to go to London. It’s been running through my mind all day, and frankly, these thoughts are getting in the way of me studying for my accounting final this evening. I guess I’m still not completely sure this was the brightest idea I ever had, but my best friend recently told me that I need to “put some more spontaneity back into my life”. I’m thinking that I should just suck it up, ace these last few finals I have, spend some quality time with my family and friends, and then take a leap of faith! I fear the unknown, but at the same time I’m exhilarated by it. I’ll be back in no time at all. I really do need to change something, and if escaping from my daily routine is that change, then so be it! The time is flying by, so London, I hope you’re ready for me!
So, even after visiting with my family for a day, I still wasn’t completely decided on whether or not to go to London. It’s been running through my mind all day, and frankly, these thoughts are getting in the way of me studying for my accounting final this evening. I guess I’m still not completely sure this was the brightest idea I ever had, but my best friend recently told me that I need to “put some more spontaneity back into my life”. I’m thinking that I should just suck it up, ace these last few finals I have, spend some quality time with my family and friends, and then take a leap of faith! I fear the unknown, but at the same time I’m exhilarated by it. I’ll be back in no time at all. I really do need to change something, and if escaping from my daily routine is that change, then so be it! The time is flying by, so London, I hope you’re ready for me!
Labels:
College,
Conversations,
Excitement,
Fear,
Friends,
Life,
London,
Time
Location:
Menomonie, WI
Friday, December 14, 2012
Money Matters
Well,
guys. Today is my last day of fall semester classes. Finals start next week,
and I’ll finally have a little break after December 21st. Then it’s
Christmas. I’m hoping to spend some time with my family before I leave.
I got an e-mail a few days ago from Westminster. I got accepted into one of their residence halls! There goes another $400 down payment. I hate to start worrying about money, but it’s kind of important seeing that I’m going to be gone for so long. I can go a few days without eating, but I can’t go five months! *Laughs* By the looks of my budget sheet, I’ll spend around $14,000 on this trip alone. On top of that, I’ve been denied financial aid for the class I signed up for during WinTerm (Winter Term). I can’t even take out a loan because I’ve reached my max in loans for the year. I’m not eligible for any more aid until my home university’s spring semester starts in February. Oh, the joys of going to college.
I always knew I wanted to go to college. I went straight out of high school. I wanted to get it over with as soon as possible. I thought that as soon as I had that degree in my hand, my goal would be accomplished. College, however, is a lot more expensive than I ever imagined. Now I’ve decided to study abroad, and that’s going to cost me even more money. Sometimes I think that I should just not go. I should save my money, and look for an internship so I can graduate on time. I should stay so I’ll be here when my best friend has her baby in February. I should stay so I can see my brother graduate in May.
Lately, I’ve just been trying to decide if this trip to London is really worth $14,000. It’s only money, right? I can always make more.
I got an e-mail a few days ago from Westminster. I got accepted into one of their residence halls! There goes another $400 down payment. I hate to start worrying about money, but it’s kind of important seeing that I’m going to be gone for so long. I can go a few days without eating, but I can’t go five months! *Laughs* By the looks of my budget sheet, I’ll spend around $14,000 on this trip alone. On top of that, I’ve been denied financial aid for the class I signed up for during WinTerm (Winter Term). I can’t even take out a loan because I’ve reached my max in loans for the year. I’m not eligible for any more aid until my home university’s spring semester starts in February. Oh, the joys of going to college.
I always knew I wanted to go to college. I went straight out of high school. I wanted to get it over with as soon as possible. I thought that as soon as I had that degree in my hand, my goal would be accomplished. College, however, is a lot more expensive than I ever imagined. Now I’ve decided to study abroad, and that’s going to cost me even more money. Sometimes I think that I should just not go. I should save my money, and look for an internship so I can graduate on time. I should stay so I’ll be here when my best friend has her baby in February. I should stay so I can see my brother graduate in May.
Lately, I’ve just been trying to decide if this trip to London is really worth $14,000. It’s only money, right? I can always make more.
Location:
Menomonie, WI
Monday, December 10, 2012
It's Still My Time
I just had a very nice conversation with a friend I met on a family cruise (go figure) to the Bahamas back in January of 2011. He asked me if I was in London already, and I told him that my departure date is January 4th. (That’s in the event that the world doesn’t end on December 21 this year.) I wanted to know if he’d ever been to London because it seemed to me that he’d been to a lot of places. In fact the whole conversation started because I “liked” a picture of him on Facebook that was taken in Scotland! This friend of mine told me that no, he hadn’t been to London before, but that on a scale of 1-10 his jealousy was a 9. I laughed! I just assumed that he’d been there already.
After some conventional reminiscing about our past endeavors, this friend asked me what I would be studying while in London. I told him “Business Administration with an emphasis in Marketing & Sales”. Then he asked me another question. He wanted to know what I planned to do with my degree. I gave him an honest answer. I told him that I wasn’t really sure, that I didn’t know what I wanted to do yet. I mentioned the idea of starting my own business, but then he wanted to know what kind of business. So I told him about an idea that my brother and I had of going into a partnership and starting some type of game development company. I then went on to say that the idea was still up in the air, and that I’d probably just end up working for some asshole like everyone else.
My friend surprised me by saying “So you have a predetermined notion that you’re going to be working for an asshole?” After he said that, it made me realize that I do have that predetermined notion. Everyone I know complains about their jobs. I just assumed that working for an asshole was typically part of life. I’ve already had my share of rotten bosses and I’m not looking forward to more of them – not to mention coworkers. Something about this realization triggered unhappy thoughts. I remember the day that I graduated high school I felt like the whole world was at my feet. I felt like doors were finally opening. I could be anything I wanted to be, or do anything I wanted to do with my life! I remember feeling like it was my time.
In all the hustle and bustle of a being a full time student with exams and job interviews jamming my schedule, I have somehow forgotten that this is still my time. It used to be all about proving myself to other people, but now I’ve had a change in attitude. I don’t have to prove myself to anyone. This time around I’m doing it for me.
As the conversation progressed, my friend said something else to me. He told me a story. He said “When I was 12 years old I met this guy who must have been at least 90. He told me something I still haven’t forgotten. He said ‘Son, do what makes you happy, and allow others to be happy. Don’t do something because somebody told you to do it, unless that person is you.’ That guy fell off a train drunk, but his words are no less true.”
There is definitely some meaning behind those words. If you’re happy, then that’s all that matters. The people around you will begin to feel the same way. I told my friend that the trouble is finding that one thing that makes you happy, and I also told him that I’ve got some more living to do. He replied “I think everyone does.”
That being said, I got a little excited about London today. I think it's the fact that it was completely my choice (aside from the university accepting me) and also the fact that I listened to my heart instead of my head. Sometimes it's okay to do that. All in all, traveling makes me happy so I'm doing it! I may never fully decide what I really want to do with my life, but for now I'm content. And that's what really matters.
-D
Labels:
Conversations,
Excitement,
Friends,
High School,
Time
Location:
Menomonie, WI
Sunday, December 9, 2012
The Inexpensive Side of London
Labels:
Books,
Budgeting,
Bus,
Cheap,
Coffee,
Inexpensive,
Live Music,
Museums,
Performances,
Rain
Location:
Menomonie, WI
Saturday, December 8, 2012
London Facts and Figures
I
was surfing the web today trying to find out some additional information on the
University of Westminster, but my mind wandered and instead I found some really
cool statistics and facts about the city of London:
London covers 620 square miles and is home to over 8 million inhabitants and 300 spoken languages. There are 5 international airports, and over 15 million visitors annually. There is a total of over 250 museums, 6,000 restaurants, 32,000 musical performances annually, and over 100 theaters. In addition, there are a total of 775 rooms in Buckingham Palace and 800 passengers per revolution on the London eye. 80,000 umbrellas are lost on the underground each year.
London covers 620 square miles and is home to over 8 million inhabitants and 300 spoken languages. There are 5 international airports, and over 15 million visitors annually. There is a total of over 250 museums, 6,000 restaurants, 32,000 musical performances annually, and over 100 theaters. In addition, there are a total of 775 rooms in Buckingham Palace and 800 passengers per revolution on the London eye. 80,000 umbrellas are lost on the underground each year.
- Windsor Castle of London is the largest and oldest castle of the world that is still in use. According to rumors, the ghosts of King Henry VIII, Queen Elizabeth I, Mad King George, and Charles I still haunt the Windsor Castle.
- The London Underground, built in 1863, and popularly called ‘Tube’, is the first metro of the world.
- The Canary Wharf Tower is the tallest building in London.
- London is one of the three command centers for the world economy, and has the sixth largest city economy in the world after Tokyo, New York, Los Angeles, Chicago, and Paris.
- Contrary to popular belief, the “Big Ben” in London is not the name of the clock or the tower. The name actually belongs to a thirteen ton bell inside the clock. The actual tower is known as the St. Stephen’s Tower.
- London is formed by two ancient cities – the City of London and City of Westminster, both cities forming the region of Greater London.
I
found this video with some additional fun facts about London on the MSNBC
website if you want to check it out: http://video.today.msnbc.msn.com/today/48300813#48300813
Friday, December 7, 2012
London A-Z
I was talking to
my advisor awhile back ago about my trip to London, and since he’d been to
London a few times himself he suggested that I buy a travel guide. He
recommended “London A-Z”, which I purchased today. I found it on the Barnes and
Noble website for $0.01. With shipping, the book only cost me a total of $4.22.
I figured that it would be a good investment since I won’t know my way around
London when I first get there. It will also give me something to do when my
laptop and my iPod die on the overnight flight to Hethrow. The book I purchased
also has its own blog entitled “The AZ Blog”. If you want to take a look for
yourself, you can follow this link: http://www.az.co.uk/blog
Labels:
Books,
Readings,
Travel Guides
Location:
Menomonie, WI
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